I LOARRVE YOU. <3

2006-02-20T22:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOMMY &ALVAN!!! whoots~ happy happy birthday. hohohoho!(:

SMALL but BRAVE - HANYING *(;

2006-02-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

I'M SICKKKK!!! why?! 'cos of bangkok! stupid. argh. must get well before sat leh. sighs. 'cos sat got tms mock comp.)= its lyke so impossible for mye to get well tmrw can. ahhhh~ KUKU lar.)=

SMALL but BRAVE - HANYING *(;

2006-01-19T19:13:00.000+08:00

whoo! congrats to TMS BBALL. LALALAAA~ 48-28. hehe. tms against springfield. whoots! hee. today's PD wasnt that bad lar. i was so er. um. excited? not really. haha. i enjoy watching bball match. &i kinda feel extra as liwei &i was the only GIRLS lar. so maluating can. bleah~ hehe. um. now i knoe at least sth abt u. so yar. haha. now i understand more abt u. &its a good thng.(: i enjoy chatting w/ the two of u. so fun. er. CHEER UP. keep SMILINGGG.((= whoots~

ying wei ni de xi huan, zui rang wo gao xing. - HANYING *(;

2006-01-12T20:42:00.000+08:00

hoho. im back to blog. haha. super lazy to blog lar. stayed back today for sjab's stuffs until around 7pm lyke that lar. reach home at 8+ im so TIRED! brgh~ i cant stand it. i cant stand it. im hating two ppl now. not hate lar. just DONTE LYKE. not hate not hate.(: i just DONTE LYKE them. one male &one female. stupid stupid stupid lar.

iLOARRVEmyself * - HANYING *(;

2006-01-09T22:07:00.000+08:00

whee! FADHLI &MOSES is super cute! ahh. haha. theyre super super cute lar. both of them are small in size. shorter than mye knoe? hehe. &theyre super super cute. pinch * i knoe i sound psycho lar. haha! okay. i knoe them during the sec one orientation thngy. hehe. theyre lyke so cute can. brgh! haha. um. oh yar. btw. had my height &weight today! im 144.5 now! WHOOTS! no longer 143. haha. but im lyke heavier.)= haha. shall grow even taller. mua-ha-ha~ im so happy that im 144.5 knoe? hehe. SAYA MAHU MAKAN KENTANG GORENG &SAYA MAHU BELI KENTANG GORENG. nice right. haha. reach home at around 8pm. watched CAMPUS SUPERSTAR. haha. saw adriano. so yar. JIAYOU! heee~

DEVIL BY UR SIDE - HANYING *(;

2006-01-08T18:37:00.000+08:00

hoho! finally at last, i can use my com again. whee~ im so happy. lama. um. well. the conflict's over! yes yes yes! im so happy. im so glad.(: haha. im mental. BRGHHH~ its super cold now. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO XINYI!!!! - no link.-.-" haha. um. went to xinyi's birthday celebration last night. &yar. got to knoe 2 frens of hers. haha. its jonathan &boon seng [er. donte knoe how to spell.] um. yar. it was super fun lar. UNTIL. UNTIL. UNTIL alvin smash the cake on my hair. GRRR! im so pissed lar. irritating freak! grr. stupid. whoo! DEVIL BESIDE U!! er mo zai shen bian. NANANAAA~ hehe.

I LOARRVE SJAB - HANYING *(;

2006-01-02T17:38:00.000+08:00

hoho! im so so so dead. hehe. i havent even started doing my chinese newspaper cutting. TRALALAA~ i shall die a horrible death tmr. hehe. im just lazy to do it. super tired can.S= hehe. &devil beside u is a super nice show can.)= i want the vcd. haha. im so gonna buy the vcd. i donte care. LALALAAA~

Er Mo Zai Shen Bian ~ Devil Beside U - HANYING *(;

2006-01-01T14:41:00.000+08:00

whoo! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JORELL! hehe.(:um. had a nice but not veyr nice new year celebration last night. went to somewhr around blk 183 to meet meiyee then we went to the 77's playground 'cos we're meeting huisi &xinyi thr. yay~ then went to blk 74 to slack lor. didnt go to the bbq pit thr to find the guys. haha~ um. then we chatted. then went to the bbq pit lor. haha. after a while, the guys started to play w/ water &spray. idiotic eddie sprayed the spray onto my face &my bag kena. wtf. i was super angry lar. i wanted to hit him lar. but b'cos of meiyee, i didnt. GRR! i hate eddie lar. then blah blah blah. omg. super lazy to type everythng out lar. hehe! um. in the end, we went to blk 183's carpark to play? yay. we played ice &water. its not normal ice &water lar. its those super fun one. the guys can really run lyke mad lar. theyre super fast runners lar. haha! sighs. its just bored unlyke last yr. so fun. sighs. miss those days lar. when everyone was much closer to each other. i donte even feel lyke typing anythng abt it lar. its so boring lar.

FENGYUAN: cheer up man! stay happy. hehe. SMILEEE.((= cheer up. ure brave. tell urself ure brave. hehe. er. still wanna say those thngs though i knoe u wonte be reading lar. haha!

HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR! - HANYING *(;

2005-12-30T20:46:00.000+08:00

um. went to bedok inter to meet those ppl who're supposed to go to school to paint SJAB room. hehe. then went to princess mac for breakfast. i ate sth, i forgot what. then i started feeling nausea again. sighs. ive been feeling sick since god knoes when. sighs.)= then went to blk 128 or 129? haha. yar. to buy paint to paint the SJAB room! whee. um. we bought the LIME SPRING or was it SPRING LIME? its sth lyke that. haha. for the front &back wall.(: then BOY BLUE for the side walls. wanted to paint the door orange but we decided not to so that we can save money. haha! um. went to scholl after that. painting the room was fun! then we donte have enough paint 'cos we bought 2 litre of LIME &1 litre of BLUE. so, alvin &i went to by again. bought 1 more tin of LIME &1 5litre of BLUE. haha. LOL. so dots lar. haha! then went back to school again. whoo! i loarrve painting. im a pro in painting. yay. haha. LOL. not funny lar. um. then sth happened &i cried. then yar went home at god knoes what time. then went back to school again, to take a look at how the others have done &to meet shaan. haha. then went for the band POP. its SO GLAM lar. im so jealous. haha. nvm. hehe. SJAB's POP is nice too. haha! LOL. hehe. then went back to the cca room to help them. i loarrve the new SJAB room. its so NICE! LIME is so so so nice lar. whoohoo! im so happy. haha. i donte knoe why. i just cant smile or anythng. sighs. &i almost forgot abt the LIZARD! haha! stupid lizard. sighs. it died a horrible death. so poor thng lar. but wanlin is the heroine of the day! haha. she killed the lizard! &saved everyone. whee! the lizard was super big lar. &i scream lyke mad lar. haha~ almost every one screamt i guess. hehe. it was super funny. a very nice day indeed. haha. SJAB. i LOARRVE SJAB.(= its not only a cca its a FAMILY!

SIGHS - HANYING *(;

2005-12-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RANSON!!!(=

whoo! im so happy lar. hahaha. everythng's alrgt now. whee~(x haha. okay. went to sch yesterday for the sec one orientation thngy. haha. it was super fun. whee! hehe. then. um. went to sentosa w/ dor, car & irene. hehe. um. we reached at around 4+? yay. should be lar. haha. um. then sth happened. sighs. so sian can. but nvm. forget about it. haha. it was super fun ytd though. &the stupid lyfe guard call mye SOT SOT. wth. stupid lyfe guard. kuku one.(: then er. it was super cold. the sea water was super super cold. haha. then we got out of the sea &walked to the washrm. the washrm was SUPER far lar. brgh~ &the water was super cold. i was shivering lar. kuku one. LIL FRANK is SUPER CUTE! omg. wth. LIL FRANK is lyke super cute lar. omg! omg! im crazy. boohoo. LIL FRANK is SUPER CUTE. CUTER THAN ANYONE ELSE! the cutest ever! haha. okay. im mad. i thnk im having a slight fever right now. haha.X= um. then er. went back to sch today, again for comp training until 5pm. from 8am to 5pm okay. haha. &was super pissed by some idiotic freako just now. &im lyke in a super bad bad mood lar. wtf. i hate her. she just suck lar. whatever.

Dandelion - HANYING *(;

2005-12-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

whoo~ woke up at 7.30am went to sch at around 9.30am haha. &i reach at 9.45am whee~(: &yar. u knoe what? ive been dreaming of everyone from CHARLIE, both DRAGON &CENTAUR for the past few days. its lyke OMG! i thnk i just miss everyone too much lar. haha. er. yar. then went for our so-called orientation training. haha. didnt train lar. but we cleaned the SJAB ROOM! whee. its so clean. &its fun cleaning the room. w/ the "palace maid", "palace guard", wanlin, siewyee, liwei &of course mye lar. haha! its super fun. got what holy water. hahaha! um. yar. then went to take my NEW SPECTS then meet huisi. then LALALAAA~ lor. haha! bought new sch shoes for next yr! whee.(= haha. er. yar. btw arh. naz is nuts. bleah` haha. palace maid.(:

NC1, JIAYOU.(: nvr give up. rmbr this. - NVR LET THE FEAR OF STRIKING OUT KEEP U FROM PLAYING THE GAME.(= - jiayou. hehe. jiayou jiayou jiayou. GOD BLESS ALL OF U.(=

Nvr Give Up - HANYING *(;

the people

2005-12-27T15:11:00.000+08:00

the people who made the camp possible

2005-12-27T15:06:00.000+08:00

love my hersheys' indians

2005-12-27T15:02:00.000+08:00

mia

2005-12-27T14:58:00.000+08:00

haha. i've been so busy that it is only now then i realise that i'm so misssing in action. i got some pictures from the sports captain camp. credits tothe super seniors sabrina and jazreel :)

2005-12-27T08:34:00.000+08:00

She says she's no good, w/ words but I'm worse
Barely stuttered out "A joke of romantic" stuck to my tongue.
Weighed down w/ words, too over-dramatic.
Tonight it's "it cant get much worse" vs. "no one should ever feel lyke..."

I'm two-quarters &a heart down,
&I donte wanna forget how ur voice sounds.
These words are all I have, so I'll write 'em down,
So u need them just to get by.

Dance, Dance;
We're falling apart to half-time
Dance, Dance;
&these are the lives u loarrve to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd loarrve
If they knew how misery loarrve mye.

U always fold just before u found out.
Drink up, it's last call, last resort
But only the first mistake &I...

I'm two-quarters &a heart down,
&I donte wanna forget how ur voice sounds.
These words are all I have, so I'll write 'em down,
So u need them just to get by.

Why donte u show mye the lil bit of spine
Uve been saving for his mattress, Loarrve?

Dance, Dance;
We're falling apart to half-time
Dance, Dance;
&these are the lives u loarrve to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd loarrve
If they knew how misery loarrved mye.

Why donte u show mye the lil bit of spine
Uve been saving for his mattress?
I only want sympathy in the form of u crawling into bed w/ mye.

Dance, Dance;
We're falling apart to half-time
Dance, Dance;
&these are the lives u loarrve to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd loarrve
Dance, this is the way they'd loarrve
Dance, this is the way they'd loarrve
If they knew how misery loarrved mye.

Dance, Dance.
Dance, Dance.
Dance, Dance.
Dance, Dance.

SMALL but BRAVE - HANYING *(;

2005-12-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

SIGHS~

simpliCITY - HANYING *|;

2005-12-25T20:56:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS~ u better watch out. u better not cry. u better not shout. im telling u why. 'cos SANTA CLAUS is coming to town! haha. mental. um. went to expo hall 9 ytd to watch a drama i guess. should be a drama. by pastor lawrence &his daughter, priscillia. it was a wonderful play w/ magic. its about THE MAGIC OF LOARRVE. it was super nice lar. i was so touched while watching the slide. i almost cried. omg. hahaha~ then rushed home to change into my dress &valvet so that i can go my uncle's house to celebrate christmas w/ my family. haha. stayed overnight at my uncle's house. brgh~ haha. then i sent almost everyone a christmas msg. lyke so stooted lyke that. &yar. liwei told mye that thr'll be training EVERYDAY, next year. i was lyke OMG! faints* but. nvm. haha. i still LOARRVE SJAB.(x sighs. PLS PPL. PLS JOIN COMP. PLS GO FOR TRAININGS. DONTE LET MYE DOWN. DONTE LET ANYONE DOWN. PLSSS~))= um. slept at 12am woke up at 9+ haha. was super tired lar. um. then went to my aunt's churhc. VFC. &i saw mervyn sir. hahaha! what a coincidence uh.(: haha. then went back to my uncle's house &we watched CHICKEN LIL. ma-ia-hii. ma-ia-huu. ma-ia-hoo. ma-ia-haha. numa numa numa ei.(x LOL. dots..... haha. then oh yar. GUOWEI went to hk! haha. thats sad lar. my best fren went overseas alr. but nvm. he'll be back in 4 days time. whee. then yar. ive got a new spects. whee~ LOL. nonsense. haha. um. im tired. hee. cant wait for tues &weds. tues got orientation training thngy. then wed going sentosa w/ dor &car.(: &i just cried. sighs. why cant we just remain how we used to be? i hate nco camp. but i loarrve it too. sighs. whatever lar.

GOD BLESS EVERYONE.((=

WHITE CHRISTMAS. - HANYING *(;

hohoho!

2005-12-23T19:18:00.000+08:00

haha. yay~ going my aunt's hse soon to celebrate CHRISTMAS. yes! finally, 1 more day to christmas. yay-yay. so excited. haha. i feel dumb. LOL.(x whoo. okay. thats all. g2g alr. YAY!

White Christmas - HANYING *(;

2005-12-22T22:06:00.000+08:00

whoo~ went for our SO-CALLED DRAGON'S GATHERING at 12pm. yay~ i reached at 11.39am. whee~ haha. then we took neos. GRR~ guys are idiots. haha. esp raymond, shairul, darren &jack. they DONTE take neos. okay. maybe jack's out lar. 'cos i knoe. &some ppl knoe. er. its supposed to be. "u knoe, i knoe, we knoe" but. nvm. haha. um. chased them all over the 3rd &4th lvl. nonsense lar. GRR~ then after neos right, i went to sch. aww~ &they went to seoul garden. haha. i went to sch to "work" lar. haha. help the bkshop aunty w/ her stuffs lor. then get 12 bucks. haha. LOL. working tmr too. whee~ from 8.30 - 3.30 yay-yay! er. okay .im so happy! my dad bought mye a PIGLET! okay. er. i actually ask him to buy that piglet for mye. &he bought it! whoo. its so cute. omg! omg! omg! haha. i loarrve him man! muacks. haha. psycho.(x so now, i thnk i got 28 piglet's stuffs!whee.

&&&SHAIRUL IS A STOOTED HEAD!!! shairul is dumb dumb, chart chart, kuku, stupid, irri!!!S=

NCOs' Training Course `05. the DRAGONS! - HANYING *(;

2005-12-21T16:05:00.000+08:00

20 DEC `05

um. supposed to meet car &someone [ i cant say whos that ] at 1.15pm. but they reached at around 1.30 i thnk. not sure. haha. saw "biscuit". GRRRRR~ kuku. nvm. im nice. haha. um. then went to tamp to buy sth. then went to QIJI to eat. jeff &jack went to meet mye outside QIJI after their movie. haha. they bully mye! brghh~(x um. after that, i PANGSEH them. hahaha! too bad. &went to bugis w/ irene, car, adele, jingying &that someone. hehe. um. i bought nth! except for one mini bag. LOL. not really mini lar. haha. i spend most of my money on FOOD! yay-yay. haha. went back to tamp after that. &i saw "biscuit" again. brghh~ nvm. donated &volunteered. haha~ im sucha nice girl right? hehe. yay. went to pei's house after that. IGNATIUS! ahh! hes so cute lar. im lyke so crazy over him! he played w/ mye. he hugged mye. he kissed mye. whoo! he didnt play w/ huisi they all. wah! i feel so BOO! hahaha. hes so cute. omg omg omg! ahh. okay. for ur info, ignatius is a 1/2 years old lil boy. haha. hes pei's nephew. yay! hes so cute! LALALAAA~ i loarrve him! whoo. okay. stop taht craziness. then. er. went home at 12.59am. yay~ hahaha. LOL. reach home at around. 1.20? whoo.

21 DEC `05

im not going anywhr today! yay. haha. 'cos i havto fetch my sis at 6.30pm. hee.(: woke up at er. 12+ oops. X= hahaha. i wanted to slp until 1+ or 2+ or maybe 3+ but my sis's bus driver called at 12 &startled mye. kuku~ i was super blur lar. he said. "rmbr to fetch shiying at 12pm after sch when sch started." i was lyke. huh? i tht he ask mye to go down at 12pm &fetch her. so i went all the way down but i see no one. haha. then i called my mom .&she called the bus driver. &yay~ u knoe, i knoe, we knoe. haha. im so blurred.S= so. im gonna stay at home until 6+ 'cos im supposed to fetch my sis &go home again! yay~

Dandelion - HANYING *(;

2005-12-19T20:14:00.000+08:00

went to bugis w/ jorelle today to meet jeff. haha. hes acting as a medic in some show lar. LOL. then wanted to buy that bag but that stupid shop's not opened. sad lyfe. haha~ then went to tamp. went home at around 3pm. 'cos need to fetch my sis. shes sick. got hfmd.)= hope shes alrgt now. my mom just brought her to the clinic. &theyre not back yet. um. god bless her.S= i still donte knoe what to do. should i say hi first? dumb mye.

strawberryPOCKY - HANYING *S=

2005-12-17T20:08:00.000+08:00

sighs. today's really the LAST LAST LAST day of course alr. so sad lor. had fun today. had exams today too. gonna fail koto AGAIN.(: &im so gonna fail theory. jeff is so gonna treat mye chocs for one whole year. whoo~ i thnk i'll havto go back for NCO camp again. next year. haha. im lyke not those kinda study study studious studious type lar. haha. sighs. last day alr. &time flies.): im beginning to miss everyone. sighs. the next time we'll see each other is lyke during the passing out thngy? sighs. i wonder who'll get best cadet. i bet its gonna be JORELLE. whee~((= i miss everyone! lets all go out one day okay? the dragons ¢aurs. humph. i miss everyone!!! ahh~ almost cried just now. emo. the sight of him make mye feel lyke crying. sighs. i miss u, i miss her, i miss him, i miss them! u knoe, i knoe, we knoe!))= those happy days w/ everyone. i donte mind going back next year for another NCO camp. haha!(: &my feet got SIX blisters.)=

DANCE, DANCE - HANYING *)=

2005-12-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

i'm lyke crying again. WTH! i saw that msg. it hurt mye. its all my fault. i regretted. tmr is exam day alr. gonna fail koto again.)= im not in a good mood to study. i cant study. im lyke super sad lar. sighs.

Dragostea Din Tei - HANYING *)'=

what i can say is IM SORRY.)=

2005-12-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

i regretted. id rather i fail NCOC than doing sth i'll regret. FOR LYFE. im lyke crying now lar. i donte knoe what to do. what i can say is. what done is done. but im super sad after listening to what jorelle has said. i donte knoe what to do tmr. i donte knoe how to face him. IM SO SORRY.)'=

full of regrets - HANYING *)'=

KING KONG~ iLOARRVEjimmy!!=X

2005-12-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

ahh. watch king kong today! whee~ haha. okay. its not very nice lar. haha. 1st hour is super boring. make mye feel lyke sleeping. 2nd hour very exciting then 3rd hour very boring again. um. not really lar. quite sad. king kong died! ahh~ &i miss JIMMY so much. aww~ hes so cute. hahaha!=X okay. got "training" tmr. hee. some sort of training lar. whee~ haha.

nvr let the fear of striking out keep u from playing the game - HANYING *(; LEADERmorphosis As One.=DD

hurhur-ness

2005-12-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

sheesh. i realise its been a long tym since i last posted. been super busy. hurhur.

nCo camp 2005 was a total blast. i miss camp. i miss everyone in the camp. i love nCo camp 2005.i miss dancing with jerone in the pageant, i miss samula-ing, i miss running up and down the stairs, i miss clearing up the canteen, i miss jumping jacks, i miss night sentry, i miss getting very impatient waiting for my turn to bathe, i miss the whole ALPHA , BRAVO, CHARLIE division. i miss running and falling down at pulau ubin twice in a row.i miss the group instructors and of course alll theSIRS and MA'AMS. i love nCo camp, hike at pulau ubin, campfire . sheesh. i love everything in the nco camp. it taught me alot of things. it certainly do. though its kinda abit tough, endurance and motivation do pay. and its not thaat bad as u think. hur hur.

take care people in nCO camp 2005. till we meet again.

-sarah

2005-12-13T19:28:00.000+08:00

whoo. theres training today. haha.(: i miss training lots. humph! but today's training is kind of boring lar. not really training lor. 'cos no one to train us. &no one to spot our mistakes &stuffs. &everyone is super tired after the camp. the sec 2s can choose not to go one. but we went. haha. esp the nursings. 'cos we must save "some ppl". yay-yay. haha! henry sir went to tms today. haha. for what? i forget alr. hee. did 2 or 3 sets of footdrills ONLY lor. so boring can. stay back until 5. to train the sec 1s. their footdrill is good enough alr. just that their banging not very good lar. haha. nvm. NC1 jiayou! hehe. bought my books today. but need to go back next week to collect 3 books. OMG~ haha. those who read my blog, can u pls pls remind mye to go back to sch to collect my books. haha. thanks alot man. hee.=P then. um. need to study for sjab exams! the exam is on this sat. omg. im so dead lar. haha.

nvr let the fear of striking out keep u from playing the game - HANYING *(; NCOs' Training Course `05. LEADERmorphosis As One!(x

LEADERmorphosis As One. NCOs' Training Course `05

2005-12-12T14:23:00.000+08:00

im back from NCO camp! SIGHS. im so so so gonna miss everyone &the camp. those days w/ them .sighs. im so emo. haha. im sentimental. LOL~ im aching all over now. REALLYYY. my left hand almost paralyse alr. haha~ been aching since the 1st or 2nd day of camp. i thnk was 1st day. YAR! 1st day. sad lyfe man. then my shoulder blade hurts. wth. my butt hurts too. um. let's start w/ the first day of camp. must report by 7.45am. but i woke up at 5+ 'cos meeting daphne. she wants mye to help her poolish her boots. &yar. this post gonna be super long. um. so. yay~ was so excited. afraid that i might faint &all this lar. then need to poo poo. 'cos i at bread in the morning. i cnt eat anythng in the morning one. or i'll have stomache. hee~ um. then put my wallet inside the ziploc bag. then surrender my ez-link. um. then yar. MY BAG WAS SUPER FAT &BIG. haha~ brought 2 bags lar. so kuku can. grr. haha. um. then fall in. then after that. got flag raising ceremony. then "FLY" up to bunk. so kuku lar. damn tiring one can. haha. then havto do this &that. can die lor. then pumping postition. my back hurts lyke CRAP! its still hurting. haha. i mean. aching. haha. i thnk ive gain LOTS of weight. haha. 'cos got breakfast, lunch, dinner &SUPPER. gosh~ haha. okay. 2nd was hiking! yay~ i loarrve to hike. i loarrve hiking. yay-yay. but we havto bring THREE bottles of 1.5 LITRE of water! wth. then my left shoulder REALLYYYY very PAIN. then hike from donte knoe what time to 4+ super tiring. but i donte knoe why i can still hyper lar. then at night, during dinner, i die-ed. haha. 'cos cannot hyper alr. hee~(x sighs. then um. fri is first day sat is 2nd day. 3rd day was. er. games day. yay~ &campfire night too. 3rd day was ytd lar. then kena sentury duty. so sad can. haha. but nvm. its fun though. haha! sighs. i really scream my lungs out during the camp, during hike, during games, during campfire. 'cos im one of the cheerleader. hee. sighs. i cried last night. 'cos its the last night alr.)= im so sad lar. we (the DRAGONS) went through ups &downs. we're lyke. so close alr lar. then havto leave each other alr. sighs. i seriously do miss them alot. had so much fun for the pass few days lor. im gonna cry soon. sighs. today was the last day.))X i thnk the officers threw our campfire stuffs away alr. i donte knoe lar. i thnk so only. 'cos weilun sir say he threw it away. or they threw it away. um. all our clothes are inside lar. sighs. nvm. forget it. whats done is done.(: i still cant smile. i miss everyone lots. thanks mdms for consoling mye. thanks lots. i loarrve u all.

LEADERmorphosis As One. we, together, WILL rules ZONE 2's SJAB. yay! we're the NCOs to be.(: hopefully can see everyone as soon as possible. &the best it everyday. ive make lotsa frens during the course &camp. i cant bear to part w/ them.))= im super sad. sighs. btw. JUNHAO is aVERY NICE GUY.(: though he talk alot. but hes a very ncie guy. i donte find him irritating. hes nice. &super funny. ive got myself a NEW SCANDAL. its..... SHAIRULLL~ hahaha. he was sarah's pri sch best fren knoe? hee.

TO EVERYONEEE INVOLVE IN THE NCO COURSE:
i'll miss EVERY SINGLE one of u. i'll miss those days. i'll miss those ppl who's always thr for mye. ESP JORELLE. i'll miss all the officers. i donte knoe what to say alr. no words can describe how i feel now. im just super sad.

i shall stop here. or im gonna cry a river.|=

nvr let the fear of striking out keep u from playing the game - HANYING *)= i LOARRVE NCOs' Training Course's trainees, instructors &officers. sighs.

TATAgirl.(;

2005-12-06T02:38:00.000+08:00

im at my TATAgirl's house! yay. staying overnight here although i got SJAB NCO so-called meeting tmr. haha. um. but nvm lar. once in a blue moon uh. hee.(x um. gonna watch saw II later. theyre waiting for mye to finish my blogging. haha! whoo~ um. going home at 6am so that i can make it to tampines on time. hohoho! haha. cant wait for tmr. yay-yay~(= um. oh yar. i earn 5 bucks yesterday. &my yesterday is monday. haaaaa~ um. so pathetic can! sighs. im so hurted lar. wahh lao. sighs. forget it. maybe not working alr 'cos got SJAB's stuffs. nvm. lets see first lar. hee.(: so yar. they wanna watch saw II alr lar. so yar. tadahh~ tc ppl. hoho~

nvr let the fear of striking out keep u from playing the game - HANYING *(; iLOARRVEmyself *(=

NICE NICE.(:

2005-12-03T22:46:00.000+08:00

Ohhh.. Oh Oh..

I donte wanna go another day
So I'm telling u, exactly what is on my mind
Seems lyke everybody is breaking up
&throwing their loarrve away
But I knoe I got a good thng right here
That's why i say (Hey)

Nobody gonna loarrve mye better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take mye higher, I must stick wit u
U knoe how to appreciate mye, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made mye feel this way, I must stick wit u

I donte wanna go another day
So I'm telling u, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want u to say that, ure the only one for mye (one for mye)
(What I'm sayin' is)

Nobody gonna loarrve mye better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take mye higher, I must stick wit u
U knoe how to appreciate mye, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody every made mye feel this way, I must stick wit u

& now, ain't nothng else I can need
& now, I'm singing 'cause ure so, so into mye
I got u, we'll be making loarrve endlessly
I'm w/ u (baby I'm w/ u)
Baby ure w/ mye (baby ure w/ mye, higher)

So donte cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I knoe u, &u knoe mye
&that's all that counts
So donte cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I knoe u, &u knoe mye
&that's, that's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna loarrve mye better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take mye higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
U knoe how to appreciate mye, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made mye feel this way, I must stick wit u

Nobody gonna loarrve mye better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take mye higher, I must stick wit u
U knoe how to appreciate mye, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made mye feel this way, I must stick wit u

never let the fear of striking out keep u from playing the game - HANYING* (;

2005-12-03T19:13:00.000+08:00

SAD SHYT! its alr DEC.)= this year gonna end SOONNNN. sighs. i'll miss this year loads. SIGHSSS! i'll miss those SEC 4s, those ppl from NCO course &of course camp lar &those memories w/ 2Nurture-ians &everyone. esp those FRENSSS.)x sighs. forget it. um. slept at 10pm last night wake up at 5.45am. yay-yay. haha! then meet the rest at tanah merah at 7am. reach Bedok View Sec at around 7.45am gee.(x im the asst grp i/c today. yay-yay. its so fun lar. haha. &u knoe what? i miss being the asst grp i/c. haha. so mental. i thnk its fun. um. &i actually volunteer when the sir says he want 12 volunteers to take one ang bao each. i got no.3 &i was the 2nd person he called. the first person was clarice. hee~ um. its fun lar. being the asst grp i/c is FUN! really. hee. ppl might thnk that im MENTAL. haha.(: then i volunteer to bring the plastic home. the plastic lyke super heavy can. sad shyt.)= havto bring it on tues. nvm. haha. im NICE. yay! im so hungry can. whrs my FOOD???? &im tired. gwa gwa gwa~ oh yar. &i thnk i'll cry on the last day of NCO camp. i'll miss everyone. though theyre not my super best frens. but i'll miss them.): esp JORELLE. hee~ iLOARRVEjorelle! yay~ winks *(; sighs. i cant wait for NCO camp! i donte knoe why. but im just super excited. YAY! i loarrve NCO course &camp! yes yes. though its quite tough but not very tough. i want it to be tougher. =X im psycho! yes. CHARLIE &THE NCOs' FACTORY!!! yes yes yes! whee~ siao! & i wanto be a CADET LEADER! yes. maybe SERGEANT can alr. so im gonna study for KOTO. yes. im gonna make it! yay~ um. i got enough oblic duties hours alr. got 60+ hours alr. but not enough duties. hoho! SERGEANT or CADET LEADER, WAIT FOR MYE!! um. actually, i wanto be an officer. maybe a G6 or G5 or G4 or G3 officer. hehe. yay! wait for mye. wait for mye.(x

never let the fear of striking out keep u from playing the game - HANYING *(;

2005-12-02T15:37:00.000+08:00

okay. im tired.(: just reach home from school lar. haha. um. earn 12 bucks yesterday. 'cos i donte have the mood to sell. damn tiring can. GRR~ slept at 1+ the day before yesterday then woke up at 6+ 'cos need to do the banner &flag for the NCO camp. YAY~ i created sth. "Charlie &the NCOs' factory" nice? &"SMALL BUT BRAVE" yay! nice nice. haha. & u knoe what? HANYING SAVE THE DAY! whoo~ i save everyone. yay-yay. i draw the word CHARLIE. &i sort of save everyone by writing (sth. i forgot what). haha. STM. um. then i made some amendments &save everyone! yay~ haha. then. yar. went home at around 1+, 2. then stayed at home until 5+. went for work after that. sighs. 12 bucks only. nvm. at least i got 90+ alr. yay! whoo. or 100+? yar. 100+ yes! haha. okay. shall end here.(=

never let the fear of striking out keep u from playing the game - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians *(=

2005-11-30T12:07:00.000+08:00

i earn 22 bucks on MON. so kuku lar. im in a super bad mood that day. hee. um. went for SJAB ytd. then went to tampines w/ alvin, gaomin, siewyee and wanlin to find some cloth thng for the NCO course. we walk around tampines to find the cloth but we found NOTHNG. so yar. in the end, alvin, gm &i, went to PS to find lar. saw boonpin at the MRT station. haha. im so BLINDDD. didnt see him until he say HI to mye. so blind can.(: hee~ SAW THAT LIMEGREEN CLOTH!!! omg~ dumb lar. why cant we get LIMEGREEN? so sadded can.)= dumb dumb dumb. hee~ went to rover to play pool after that. um. then went hm. then blah blah blah. then work.(: earn 61 bucks YESTERDAY!! yay! im so HAPPYYYY~ thats the very first time i earn so much. first time i clear stocks knoe? hee~ so happy! i LOARRVE blk 311C. yay-yay! reach hm at 12+ slept at 1+ sighs. im in a SUPER BAD MOOD right now. &i donte knoe why. dumb right. stupid.

never let the fear of striking out keep u from playing the game - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians *(=

2005-11-28T09:58:00.000+08:00

hurhur-ness~ yay! earn 29 bucks yesterday. yay-yay. happy happy. haha.((x MENTAL~ um. xinyi is my LUCKY STAR. haha. yay! oops.=X hee. bought 2 shirt yesterday. gee.(: um. going queensway then suntec then bugis later. haha. whoohoo-ness. haiya. but still need to work. nvm. i shall work &earn more money. then give some to my mommy. right? right?(=

never let the fear of striking our keep u from playing the game - HANYINGGG *(; 2Nurture-ians *(=

TIREDEDDDD!)=

2005-11-26T20:22:00.000+08:00

dumb dumb dumb. the course is fun but SUPERRRR TIRING.)x its a miracle that i didnt faint okay. haha. wheeheee~(: the lectures are super boring lar. fall aslp halfway through. then zhenghao wake mye up.(= super tiring can. reach home at 12+ yesterday. slept at 1+ wah lao. kuku! then woke up at 5.45am. AHHHH~ im so tireded. didnt work today 'cos i donte knoe how to go there. haha! at punggol lor. so far. whatever lar. im BLOATEDD. hee. oh yar. i thnk jack/junjie was annoyed by mye. haha! i kept saying I WANT LIMEGREEN DONTE WANT PYNK. haha. so kuku. and yar. IM STILL SOOOOO HURTEDD! my boyfren DIED.)= so sad right. cedric left mye alone. sad lyfe.

never let the fear of striking out keep u from playing the game - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians (=

I'M SORRY.(:

2005-11-25T14:30:00.000+08:00

um. okay. i shall not mention what happened YESTERDAY. it really piss mye off` LALALAAA~ shall stay HAPPY((: okay. um. i wanto apologise to aisyah and gaomin. YAY~ haha. um. okay. i'm sorry for giving attitude? did i? not really attitude lar. okay. its consider as an attitude. the super slack attitude. 'cos im really SUPER tired. slept at 11+ or 12+ yesterday. 'cos need to work marh. therefore, im super tired today.(: got NCO course tmr! die die die~ i donte want. but im feeling excited.=P how? alvin said that i MIGHT be the course i/c or group i/c? DIE lar. i donte want can. i scared later they cannot see mye lar.(x hee~ then donte knoe whos talking. yay-yay. whateverness. bought a watch just for that stupid course. nvm lar. haha. super tired! need to work later. then must wake up by 5+ tmr morning. how can? im so gonna slack throughout the whole course. 'cos im sure that i'll be SUPER TIRED tmr. haha. cannot hyper alr.|=

Faith makes all thngs possible...
Hope makes all thngs work...
Loarrve makes all thngs beautiful...

never let the fear of striking our keep u from playing the game - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians *(=

tireded~

2005-11-24T10:15:00.000+08:00

ahh~ im feeling soooo tired. i donte thnk i can post everyday alr. 'cos need to work, work, work and work. meeting adele later. after meeting her, we'll go to simei for some flyers thng. then after flyers, go punggol to sell ice cream. im so tired. i thnk im sick alr. um. got SJAB tmr. but still, i havto work tmr. must earn money. yay-yay! haha. anw, the ice cream job starts at 7 what. haha. so im sure i can make it on time. um. i donte thnk i can work on sat! 'cos got NCO course. ahh` so sad right. at most i'll rush there after SJAB? but i donte thnk i can make it on time lar. haiya. kuku one.):

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians(=

(:

2005-11-23T10:11:00.000+08:00

Days swiftly come and go
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone
The nights are long
And i am left while the tears fall

Did u thnk that i would cry
On the phone?
Do u knoe what it feels lyke
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

Swing, swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crush by
By a former loarrve
Can u help mye find a way
To carry on again?

Dreams cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knoes i was wrong
The notes are old
They bend, they fold
And so do i to a new loarrve

Did u thnk that i would cry
On the phone?
Do u knoe what it feels lyke
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

Swing, swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed
By a former loarrve
Can u help mye find a way
To carry on again?

Bury mye
(You thought ur problems were gone)
Carry mye
(Away, away, away)

Swing, swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed
By a former loarrve
Can u help mye find a way
To carry on again?

Swing, swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed
By a former loarrve
Can u help mye find a way
To carry on again?

Swing, swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed
By a former loarrve
Can u help mye find a way
To carry on again?

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians *(=

sheesh. drama

2005-11-23T01:37:00.000+08:00

haha. been a long time yar?

been very busy lately. been going to one open hse to another every week. haha. till late nyte summore. sheesh. plus the 3 day trainings. haha. but i officially declare that i love tuesday training. i dunnoe why but its super nice. haha. and i've been busy cracking my skull trying to cum up with my speech. haha. finally i'm done. i'm just hoping for the best. haha. i'm anxious to get it done coz its killing me. haha. in case you nvr noe, i love talking to people but sumtyms i'm too lazy to open my mouth so i would normally stone. haha. currently, i'm in love with CEDRIC! his mine. haha. damn sadlah when he died. haha. cheated my feeling and left me devastated and heart broken. sheesh. so drama. haha.

i never knew it was so hard to let go of someone you love. especially when he means the world to you for long time and it ended just like that. super devastating in the first place. but as minutes pass, which turned to minutes and then to hours and then days and weeks and finally months, i finally realised that i've been stupid all this while. it was never worth it. never worth my worries, my tears and so on.and to think we've been together for a long time.sheesh. i thnk i'm history for him. so yar. he's history to me too. chapter closed. the end. full stop. shall promise myself and my lao gong that i will never look back on the past.not even those sweet precious memories we shared. i wunt look back. not anymore.if u can get on, y cant i? so yupx. i'm getting on with my own life. forget yesterday, live for tommorow. hence, i shall live for tommorow. yay-ness. i will never regret the decisions i make coz we are who we are not by qualities but by the choices we make.i am me. i am sarah. this is my choice. my life (:

but there is sumthing called miracles
till then i shall be waiting but not too hopeful

*my wish- wishing upon a star*

a new chapter shall begin.
haha.
so drama.

i love myself
i love my husband *han ying*
i love my three generations *ah ma- val,atok-hyder,mommy-kela*
i love my besties * aqilah, dinah,ifah, zai and the list goes on and on*
i love you.

`shining star diamond-*

2005-11-21T12:33:00.000+08:00

whoo! its DINGJIE's birthday today. yay-yay.(: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DJ!!! hee.(= alright. i needa bathe and stuff alr. going out soon.(:

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians *(x

Nocturne.(:

2005-11-20T17:40:00.000+08:00

A crowd of bloodthirsty ants are drawn by rotting flesh
I watch the lonely scenery w/ an expressionless face
Having lost u, loarrve begins to come clear
Having lost u, is there anythng left to care about
When the dove doesnt represent peace any longer
I've finally been reminded, they're in fact vultures, those feeding in the plaza
I use beautiful rhymes to describe a loarrve that has been plundered empty

Ah, black clouds begin to obstruct [the sky] , the sky of the night is unclean
Echoes of that funeral in the park, are flying all through the sky
The white rose that [I] gave to u has withered in this environment of pure darkness
On branches, the silence of the crows feel very sinister
Listening quietly, my black overcoat yearns to provide u warmth
A memory that grows colder w/ each passing day, a lyfe that's been walked past, walked past
Ah, fog fills the air on all four sides
Ah, I am in an open cemetry
[I will] still loarrve u after I've aged

[I] play for u Chopin's Nocturne
To commemorate this deceased loarrve of mine
A sound just lyke a wind in the night
The heart breaks w/ such a beautiful sound
Hands at the keys, [I] tap very lightly
The longing that i gave was very tentative
U are buried in place called afterlyfe
[I] played for u a Chopin's Nocturne
To commemorate this deceased loarrve of mine
And for u I've become anonymous
Playing the piano under the moonlight
The response of ur heartbeat
Is still so warm and clear
I remember the scarlet imprint of ur lips

Those dragonflies who have lost their wings, are scattered in this forest
And yet my eyes do not show a shred of sympathy
Having lost u, my tears are murky and blurred
Having lost u, even my smile holds shadow
The wind on the moss-covered rooftop
Ridicules my sadness
Lyke a waterless well
I use an exquiste font-type
To depict that loarrve which not even regret will bring back

[I] play for u Chopin's Nocturne
To commemorate this deceased loarrve of mine
A sound just lyke a wind in the night
The heart breaks w/ such a beautiful sound
Hands at the keys, [I] tap very lightly
The longing that i gave was very tentative
U are buried in a place called the afterlyfe
[I] play for u Chopin's Nocturne
To commemorate this deceased loarrve of mine
And for u I've become anonymous
Playing the piano under the moonlight
The response of ur heartbeat
Is still so warm and clear
I remember the scarlet imprint of ur lips

A crowd of bloodthirsty ants are drawn by rotting flesh
I watch the lonely scenery w/ an expressionless face
Having lost u, loarrve begins to come clear
Having lost u, is there anythng left to care about
When the dove doesnt represent peace any longer
I've finally been reminded, they're in fact vultures, those feeding in the plaza
I use beautiful rhymes to descibe a loarrve that has been plundered empty

aint this song nice? its a chinese song. i lyke this song.(:

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians *(=

2005-11-20T15:27:00.000+08:00

whoo! ZI YE!!! my new BOYFRIEND!! iLOARRVEhimSOOOOmuchhh~((x hee. he's so CUTEEE~ okay. he's a 4 years old boy from china. CUTENESSS! super super super CUTEEE.xD im so in loarrve w/ him. hahaha. im crazyyyyy over himmm. super cute can. aww~ im sure he loarrves mye too. blush* hahaha! whateverness. i cant get him out of my head. hee~((= okay. im hypering alr. why? 'cos im thnking of that super cute ziye! GEEE~(x so psychotic.(: okay. whatever.

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians *((=

TIREDNESSSSSS~))=

2005-11-19T18:03:00.000+08:00

im so so so gonna die of tiredness. slept at 2 and woke up at 7. um. im not really that tired at first. but i felt SO dead after doing a few sets of footdrill. damn tiring one, knoe? do those drills w/o having my breakfast can really kill mye. i almost died of breathlessness. haha. so whateverness. haiya. my brain cant function properly alr. meeting xinyi they all at 77 later. ahh. im feeling so lethargic.)= GRRR~ meet fenglong and chunwei at my block just now. we chatted for lyke around one hour lor. then went to econs to buy STARCH. haha. then i donte knoe what happen alr. im feeling GIDDY~ giddines.): i feel lyke sleeping. my eyes closing alr. sighs.

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians *(((=

2005-11-18T17:05:00.000+08:00

watch HARRY POTTER and the GOBLET OF FIRE yesterday. so nice can. haha. so thrilling yet touching. aww~ haha. i cant imagine that i actually cried while watching it. so EMO right? hee. yesterday was a MALUATING day. haha. i saw lots of familiar faces at tampines yesterday. kuku right. GRR~ so maluating. saw benjamin w/ juncui then saw one SJAB guy from yuying corp one. haha. shall not mention his name. haha. spastic. and another guy from junyuan sec. i shall not mention his name too. hee~(x u knoe what? SOMEONE [kidd] IS A CHEATERBUGG. cheat ppl feelings only. bleah` hahaha. um. went for SJAB today.((= whee~ but im super tireded to do anythng lar. slept at 1am can. then havto wake up by 7 can.): GRR~ i simply just slack throughout the WHOLEEEE training until training's over and we have our own FOOTDRILL training!! whoohoo! footdrill. im better in footdrill compared to the other two category.(: but. haiya. only do for lyke 30 mins? SAD LYFE.)= but. um. better than nothng lar. hee~(x then yar. saw that CHEATERBUGG. haha.(x LALALAAA~ went home at around 4? yar. saw one someone familiar. and thats SHAUN. that BOWLING GUY. grr~ that maluating day. he reminds mye of that super maluating bowling day. ahh~ okay. um. going out soon. hee. meeting adele to play pool. yay. i miss pool!!((x oh yar. i got into HIST & ART! grr~ im so gonna APPEAL for GEOG & ART. 'cos im afraid i cant cope w/ hist. hee.(x whoo. gonna be 3A next year. YAY-ness.((=

THAT LIMEGREEN SHOEEEEE!!!
ive got that piglet shirt. whoohoooo~

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians((=

2005-11-16T23:27:00.000+08:00

WHOOOOOOO!!! im feeling SOOOOO HAPPYYYYY!!!~((= yay-ness. ive bought that PIGLET SHIRT. all thanks to REG dear dear. hee~((x LALALAA~(; went out w/ reg, to bugis today. whoo~ haha. so fun.(: iLOARRVEregDEARdear. gee.(x

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians *)=

2005-11-15T20:19:00.000+08:00

YAWNS~ sighs. im so TIRED.): slept at 2am woke up at 6.45am. ga ga ga~ haha. i just woke up but i still feel tired. haiyo. im sucha pig. sighs. anyone free tmr? GRR~ no one is free tmr. i wanna go bugis to buy somethng.)= sad lyfe. SIGHS~ im so bored. feel lyke sleepy. i bet im gonna sleep early tonight. HAA~(: i watch "drink, drank drunk" for the 2nd time alr. too bored alr lar. haha. im waiting~~ sighs.

MY WISHLISTS. [ ive been thnking about it for the whole day. haha~ ]
- that PIGLET shirt.):
- those PIGLET soft toys.)=
- that ripcurl and adidas bag.
- that BILLABONG wallet.);
- that PHONE.
- LOTS of clothes.

omg. im so greedy. i still some more stuffs but i cant remember what i want. hahaha!((x

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians *((=

2005-11-14T17:31:00.000+08:00

whoo. went out yesterday afternoon and night to sell the charity coupons. whoo~ haha. i sold the whole booklet! yay-ness. hehe.(: THAT PIGLET SHIRTTTT!! i want that shirt.)= wait for mye. wait for mye. wait for mye. that PIGLET SHIRT at bugis. hee. mental-ness. but i seriously lyke that shirt A LOTTTTT. im gonna buy that shirt. either today, tmr or the day after tmr.

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ian *((=

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FENGYUAN!!(=

2005-11-13T14:18:00.000+08:00

whoo~ yesterday was FENGYUAN's BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FENGYUAN!!!((x i went shopping at BUGIS w/ adele yesterday afternoon. spent 50 bucks. heeee.(x and i reach home at SIX in the MORNINGGG~ whee. super fun.(: um. okay. went for FENGYUAN's chalet yesterday night at around 10pm? yar. then i donte intend to ton one. but in the end, xy ask mye to ton. so i ton lor. heee~ um. sort of regretted lar. i shouldnt ton in the first place. 'cos havto waste money take cab home. midnight charge some more. haha. but nvm lar. it was SOOOOOO FUNNN~ we chatted from i thnk 12+ or 1+ all the way to 5+ yayness!(= fun right? then shan shan and i, took cab home. she lives opp my block. so the both of us took one cab. yar. i fell asleep in the cab. super tired can. got SJAB in the morning ( yesterday ). haha. then after SJAB go shopping. after shopping, go FENGYUAN's CHALET. alvin lar. cyco mye go. KUKU lar. but haha. FUN~

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture-ians*((=

2005-11-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

sighs. i thnk this month is my most unluckiest month. lotsa thngs happened. im so not gonna be in a good mood for the few days.)=

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2N *((=

maluated~

2005-11-10T21:00:00.000+08:00

ahh! im so maluated! haha. what a maluating day.(: okay. i shall not fill in the details. its just a SUPERRRR MALUATING day. hahaha! okay. its sth about bowling. gee~((x and yar. im not going for training tmr. mental one can. 1.30 to 5.30. im NOT GOING.=P its TOO last min. its not that i donte care or what. ive got a APPOINTMENT. and i havto help out at home. GRRR~ SOOOOO last min. so all i ccan say is SORRYYY~(=

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; LOARRVEEE~((=

'marathoning'

2005-11-10T17:47:00.000+08:00

yesterday was quite fun but super tiring. reached home at ard 12++. haha. so basically most of the higher malay and sum express students came together to go for raya outing. there were me, aqilah, dinah, zai, both humairahs,fatin, zhuliana,ikhwan,hyder,ashraf,aleem,sophian,sabri,zameer haha.i cant remeber the rest. sorrie. haha. let me noe if i got miss u out. haha. there was altogether 18 i think at first then it gradually decreased to 15 then 10 as the day gets darker. haha. we inyended to go to all of our hses but sum parents were not at home and stuff and we had no time so in the end went to ard ten hses like that. haha. it was sumthing like an amazing race, with the girls , their high-heeled shoes. haha. super funny and fun. haha. going down the stairs was even funnier and spastic. the heels were super noisy as one by one descended the flight of stairs. it sounded like sum elephants. haha. lots of walking to be done. wee~ mentalness . but i didnt talk that much coz i wasnt really feeling well. haha. kukuness.

2005-11-09T10:25:00.000+08:00

um. went out w/ all the KUKUSS yesterday. haha. okay. i shall be GOODD. went out w/ val, hyder, shao xuan, annop, sin lek & last but not least, the KUKUU boy. hahaha! aww~ i so miss my GENTLEEE girl.)x haha. okay. my GENTLE girl is VAL!! haha. whateverness. okay. supposed to meet at 2. but in the end, the KUKUU girl & KUKUU boy, reach at 2.15 or 2.30. heee~(= guess who's the KUKUU girl & KUKUU boy. oh yar. KUKUU means SPASTIC/NAILS. so. they cant be nails right? haa.(: so, MOST of us are there ready. but left one more guy. haha. annop.(= um. he was late for lyke 45 mins? we waited for him at tm mac. haha. super funny can. um. then we walk here walk there. wanted to watch CELLO, we watch it anyway. but its the 7.15pm one. so, my KUKUU girl didnt watch it w/ us for some reason.); miss her lyke abcdefg. hahaha. so whatever. um. okay. that movie was super LAMEEE. the moral of the movie is. do not sth sth ur fren for fame. haha. guess whats the sth sth. hee~(x um. then we walk walk until 9+ he sent mye home. yar. & thats the end of yesterday. wondering what will happen today. um? my GENTLE girl has just turned to be my GENTLE GUARDIAN STAR. whee~ haha. i cant wait for tmr & fri~ going bowling tmr.(: and im going pooling on fri w/ my GENTLE GUARDIAN STAR, ke-ai jie DEL, baobei REG and siewling.

IF I HAD ONE WISH, WE WOULD BE BEST FRIENDS. hope u'll knoe who im referring to. & i hope that u'll get what im trying to say. i always wanted to let u knoe about it, but i donte have the guts to tell u. sighs. & thanks for everythng. thanks for being by my side all the while, thanks for cheering mye up whenever im down. i seriously, honestly, do appreciate everythng uve done. |: but, im sorry if ive let u down, im sorry.)=

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(; 2Nurture *

2005-11-08T11:29:00.000+08:00

as days pass, i came to realise that i have been stupid and stubborn. i'm drained emotionally and mentally mainly because i was stubborn. it was partly ur fault, but i admit, sum were mine. i chose to be this way. i forced myself to be reminded of you. i chose to never take no as an answer. so the consequences, i fell hard.i chose to be selfish. i chose to not listen to the ones who had been with me all this while. i was stupid and stubborn enuf to nvr want to let go of the past.
but i realised that it was not worth it. you were not worth my tears . not worth of care, not worth my love. i must have been out of my mind to want you back in my already scarred life after what u did to me all these while. the way u put everything is like u were right and watever . i must have been out of mind. really. how can i ever guarantee myself that it wud turn out perfectly fine juz like how i always pictured.
yes, one day i will forget. i have long forgiven u. but nvr forgotten coz the scars that were left behind, the memories were to painful to be erased. because of you, i learnt the hard way. never to let it get that far.in fact, i learnt to never fall in love. i'm too young. because of you i only learnt half of what love truly mean.yes. one day, i will truly learn the full meaning of it.
but for now, maybe i wud like to get on with my life. but i wud nvr pretend it was ok. i hate to be always pretending and lying that it was fine. i noe that by pretending, i'm only running away from it.i'm not a coward. i wunt run away. i will face it.
but because of you, i learnt what life is all about. i can no longer go running like a small kid crying for help. i have to face it myself. i learnt that life is harsh. and you have to accept it whether you like or not. and all good things will evetually cum to and end. its never like fairytale where the ending is alwys a happy one. but i noe that my friends will always be there for me. and i thank god for having such colourful rainbows in my life.

thanks a million. i love my honey, i love my ah ma,i love my mummy, i love my bestfriends, i love my friends and of coz i love my family and myself. i love everyone of u. thanks for everything. haha.

lotsa love,
sarah

wheee!~

2005-11-07T20:22:00.000+08:00

whoo. guess where am i now? i'm at doreen aka xiaobai's house. hahaha. went out at 2+ to meet xinyi & fely. 'cos fely wants to dye her hair. then huisi & pei went to the salon to meet us. adele was there too.(:hee. um. then we LALALAA~ LALALAA~ to doreen's house. loarrve her house. so cosy one. hee~(: good right. um. okay. we're going out soon. so yar. TADAHHH~((=

SMILEEE.((=

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING *(;2N *

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REGG.((=

2005-11-06T23:12:00.000+08:00

whoo!~ it's reg's birthday today. so, i shall wish reg a HAPPY BIRTHDAY here.(: um. nothng happened today. super boreded. went out at 8+, to meet xinyi they all at 77's playground. we chatted for awhile then i got phone call. heeeee~((: um. then after he put down the phone, tianen called. then after tianen, shijun kor called. HAIYOOOO~ then after shijun kor, lipkio papa called. faints * i had a terrible headache but still, i stayed up late to watch "My Date With A Vampire" haha. so yar. um. thats all about today. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REGG!~((=

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * (; 2N *

SIGHSSSS. ))=

2005-11-05T17:28:00.000+08:00

woke up at 6.21am. grrrr. i wanna sleep longer one can. ): sighs. reach sch at around 7am lor. we rehearsed for the OPEN HOUSE thngy. then in the end, it RAINED. so, the whole thng was CANCELLED. SADDED. then sarah & i went taking pics w/ lyke everyone lar. mentalness. im so sorry, mr toh wk. hehe. (: then we scandal w/ ki xiang. haha. FORCED him to take pics w/ us. haa. super funny. but now, im tireded. cant hyper anymore. sadddd. im having a fever. so super unlucky. ):

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * (; 2N *

2005-11-04T14:06:00.000+08:00

today's training is super fun!! whoooo~ haha. okay. woke up at 6.30. GRR~ im so tireded. )= haha. nvm. for the sake of SJAB. whhheeee. heheeee. um. THANKS KOR for the huge lollipop. its so nice. haha. but the FROG one is nicer. but. too bad. haha. went home at 1+ yar. sad lyfe.

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * (; 2N *

2005-11-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

went for the so-called class gathering in the afternoon. its a so-called class gathering 'cos only 9 of us went for it & all of us are CHI. grr~ haha. but. nvm. we'll have chalet soon. winks * (= okay. watched SKY HIGH. whoooo. its a nice movie. hee. (: nice & touching. wheeee. LOL-ness. um. went to rover after to meet adele then we played a few rounds of pool. not swimming pool hor. haha. went home at around 12+ i thnk? yay!

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * (; 2N *

((=

2005-11-02T18:20:00.000+08:00

whoo! ive got my phone back!! im so happy! got 16 miss calls & 12 msgs. woah. haha. & its in lyke one day only? pro-ness. ((: whoo. u can call & msg mye now! winks * (; oh yar. beware of mye. haa. i'll be violent & whatsoever whenever im provoked/pissed. hehe. BEWAREEEE. SMILEE * (=

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * (; 2N*

2005-11-02T01:56:00.000+08:00

as i look back, every single thing that happened-no matter how tiny or major it is, means alot to me. it has taught me many countless of stuff. like the price of friendship and love.
for instance, after being in the same class for two years, we were natually bonded together stronger. we went tru thick and thin together-laughing and crying together. but after this year, when we are seperated and streamed into different classes, do u think we wud b that close anymore? i wish we wud be but i dun think there is such thing. naturally, we wud be busy with our own issues and new classmates that sumtimes we tend to forget the rest who were with us before. its so cliche. friends come and go.in ten years time, wud we still be able to remember the playful us?would we even still be able to recognize our ex-classmates?
i miss 2R.
it takes a while to fall in love and to find your perfect other half. but sometimes, things dont always turn out the way you want them to be.when you fall, you fall hard. it hurts.especially when you try so hard to forget him, you find yourself falling even deeper for him. memories can nvr be erased, neither can love.

ps-lao gong
thanks for everything. i love you alot.honest.i will always be there for you too. i swear.

-sarah-

2005-11-01T18:46:00.000+08:00

SHYT LAR!!! i left my phone at my aunt's house. kuku lar. irri can. )= wonte be able to get back my phone until FRI. WTF. i donte understand my father. cant he lyke drive us back for the sake of my phone?! my mom's dumb. told her to ask my aunt to switch off my phone but instead, she asked her to pick up my phone calls & ask my aunt to ask that whoever to call my house. DUMB. im super PISSED. donte bother to phone mye or msg mye until sat. shldnt have gone to my cousin's birthday celebration. id rather let them say sth bad about mye than to leave my phone there. DUMB PPL. monkeys. irri ppl. brainless.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAAN!! sorry for not celebrating w/ u. GRR~ id rather celebrate w/ u than those dumbass. )x

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * )x 2N *

(:

2005-10-30T20:02:00.000+08:00

There's no one in town i knoe
U gave us some place to go
I never said thank u for that
I thought i might get one more chance

What would u thnk of mye now,
So lucky, so strong, so proud?
Never said thank u for that
Now I'll never have a chance

May angels lead u in
Hear u mye my frens
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead u in

So what would u thnk of mye now,
So lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank u for that
Now I'll never have a chance

May angels lead u in
Hear u mye my frens
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead u in

And if u were w/ mye tonight
I'd sing to u just one more time
A song for a heart so big
God couldn't let it live

May angels lead u in
Hear u mye my frens
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead u in

May angels lead u in
Hear u mye my frens
On sleepless roads , the sleepless go
May angels lead u in

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * (; 2Nurture *

2005-10-29T15:02:00.000+08:00

whoo. got training today!! haha. (= um. actually not really training lar. just rehearsals for the open house ceremony thng. whee!~ super fun. haha. the circle thng is NICE~ haha. mental-ness. 9-1. whoo. fun fun. haha. yayness! i got another 68.5 more public duty hours! happiness! haha. so i will get another 68.5 more CIP hours! whoo. hanying RUBY! haha. okay. okay. (: oh yar. got the SPRING CLEANING thng in sch yesterday. haha. & i havto stand on the chair to clean the window. haha. so maluating can. (: oh yar. sighs. i've just come to realised how fast time has passed. 2 years have gone just lyke that. i want 2N * back.

Mdm Wan, I'm sorry. I've disappoint u. ): I'm sorry. Very very very sorry. sighs.

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * (; 2Nurture *

2005-10-28T18:40:00.000+08:00

didnt post yesterday 'cos i was out until 8+ then on the phone until 10+ haha. um. so yar. just reach home. um. had training just now. SUPER TIRED! haveto train the sec ones. phew~ haha. um. im starting NOT TO HATE the sec ones. haha. even asther. (= asther u must be honoured. haha. um. i lyke asther's determination. & all the other sec ones' determination. SIGHS! i got 3 Us. ): class position - 24/40 sadded lar. then level position - 50/78 wth can. hurted. SIGHSSS!!!!

SEC ONES. stay that way okay? loarrve SJAB all the way. train well. keep that fire burning. haha. GOOD LUCK for next year's comp. um. SEC TWOS. join comp kay? it will be our/u guys' last comp. do ur best. (: i donte thnk its my last comp 'cos i'll be in tms until 2007. shld be lar? haha. yar. um. GOOD LUCK GUYS. (;

TWO NURTUREians. ((=

i'll miss EVERY SINGLE one of u. sighs. its the last day, & the last year. i wanna cry! 2N* sighs. i want 2N, back again. )): sighs. sighs. sighs. 2N will ROCKS the whole sch for a billion years. (= the BEST of LUCK to everyone of u. (: STAY HAPPY alr? stay in contact. we'll be frens till the very end. i LOARRVE all of U!!!! miss u guys loads. ))'=

looking back

2005-10-28T01:29:00.000+08:00

wow! time pass real fast. one year has passed and that makes two. there wont be anymore 2R anymore. sadness. as i look back, the class is really something special to me. for the first time, i felt the close bond between each and everyone in 2r. there were all fond memories of the classmates- sweet, sour, bitter. we were there for each other wenever we needed helped. we laughed together, cried together, got scolded together. one for all, all for one. the class has taught something valuable that is the price of friendship that each and everyone of us shared. gee. i miss my class alot. i hope they do too. i wonder if nxt year, we would still be be able to be like before. would we be childish enuf to still be playful, or would we forget the past and ignore the rest and ne as busy as ever with the new classmates we meet?

-sarah-

2005-10-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

went to suntec just w/ bern, yuepei & ahh siiii. hahaha. um. then we went to rover to play pool. (= whee. i miss pool lots. haha! im on the phone now. haha. okay. tadah!

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * (;

2005-10-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

you take a while to fall in love with someone.
trust takes time.
you give and take equally in relationships.
you need your space and privacy.you dont like to be smothered.
you're secretly hope that your special one will change for you.
you stay in love for long time, even if you are'nt loved back.
when you fall, you fall hard.

its hard to find your perfect other half. if you u let go without a fight, u're an idiot.

hmm. memories from the past. sweetness personified. i still love you. (=

2005-10-25T19:34:00.000+08:00

whoo. im back! haha. happiness. haha. went to TM to buy jazli's present w/ someone, sarah & a few more guys. haha. yar. i donte knoe their name. okay. i knoe. but i forgot. um. two of them are hyder & sabri. haha. that's all. i forgot the other two guys' name. oops. im sorry. =X haha. im just STM. i shall not say what actually happened after that. haha. ((= um. okay. just a good, happy & nice day. haha. bought jazli's present. whoo.

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * (;

YOU & MYE. (=

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAZLI!

2005-10-24T19:26:00.000+08:00

im boreded! havto look after my sis. haha. sian-ness. im now a part time nanny. LOL-ness. whatever lar. nothing to do today. & nothing to say today. haha! & yar. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAZLI!!! whoohoo-ness. hahaha!

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * (;

2005-10-23T21:02:00.000+08:00

whoo. im feeling better. i thnk i was having moodswings last night. haha. yar. i thnk i shld apologise to those ppl who i gave att to. im just sadded. haha. but one thng thats true is. HAPPY NO MORE. (= um. okay. i shall apologise to dj & my wife, sarah. sorry sorry. donte mean to scold dj. sorry. & sorry my dearest laopo. donte mean to sound sad. but im just sadded. haha. so its normal for someone whos sadded to sound sad. hehe. & plus theres a bump on my forehead. fishing pain can. GROANS!!~ okay okay. went to KALLANG THEATRE to catch my sis on stage. haha! she acted as a TREE. LOLness. super funny can. shes so cute!! haha. um. so yar. thats all for today. hopefully i'll stay happy everyday. (:

23 October 2005, 8.02pm

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING (;

2005-10-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

sighs. i just cant make myself happy, no more. my results really hurted mye. ive got no mood to thnk about anythng. im not waiting anymore. a million years passed. i give up. i give up. i give up. ive given up hope in everythng. so what if i can get into sec 3?! stupid/dumb/shyt/hopeless results aint gonna help mye. i may look happy. but actually, im not. im super sadded. donte ever ask mye about my results anymore. or i'll make sure i cry in front of u. then now got what shyt games day. siao one can. so fast games day ready. cannot postpone meh?! so what if exams over?! wtf. im not gonna give in 100% in SJAB anymore. i just cant. i thnk ive disappoint a lot of ppl. sighs! donte console mye. it aint gonna make mye happy. im just hopeless. donte feel lyke studying anymore. no motivation anymore. i cant imagine. my maths is better than my sci. wth is wrong w/ mye? i give up. cant take it anymore. sjab is stressful. donte wanna go NCO camp. my loarrve for SJAB is fading. im just sadded. happy no more.

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING ):

2005-10-22T02:42:00.000+08:00

sighs. exams results are out ready. but im not happy at all. im utterly disappointed. i failed 3 subs. i wanna die. )'= my CAs might pull mye up. but. my marks ready hopeless. maths - 28/100. & my CAs aint gonna pull mye up. 'cos i always got below ten for CAs. sci - 25.5 but my CAs gonna pull mye up. 'cos i scored well for CAs. history - 44.5/100 ): chinese - 69/100 grr. im so sadded. i got only 69 for chinese. sighs. d&t - 62/100 i pass d&t. for the very veyr very first time. literature - 67/100 im sadded! lit! sadness. all my results suck lyke crap. 'cos im DUMB. dumb dumb dumb. gone...... sighs. & i knoe ive not done my best. tis not my best. i could have done better. sighs. NVM! theres still next year! so. STAY HAPPY! haha. went to bern's house to watch loarrve storm. i lyke her house! so cosy. haha. GOT PIANO! ahh. piano. haha! um. went home at 10+ or 11+ reach home at around 11.30? or later than that. 'cos i walked home. haha. & there's a STUPID BUMP on somewhere around my forehead. the side of my forehead. shyt man. darn pain lar. i donte knoe how i get that bump. bump. dumb. bump. dumb.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to fely & angelina! winks* may u girls' stay HAPPY forever.

we'll meet again, when both our cars collide - HANYING * (;

2005-10-21T16:41:00.000+08:00

the exam results are out already. kinda disappointed in science but the rest was quite satisfactory to me.haha.

actually i dont have the mood to do anything in sch or at home. sorrie if i gave you guys attitude or ignore u. i dont know why. mayb its because i'm still tired. have been thinking alot lately. i just cant help it. i cant distact myself that much anymore. someday i will learn to face the truth. but i believe in miracles. mayb at some point in my life, it would turn out to be bettar. when i come to think of it, i was quite childish to not want to let go of the past. haha. but whatever it is, i cant bring myself to forget those precious memories. its the only thing that is making me strong other that my sweeties though sometimes it hurt like pins and needles.

to my dear husband-honey, cheer up kaes. dun be sad. try harder nxt year.jia you. cheers! (=

DISAPPOINTMENT. ):

2005-10-20T16:37:00.000+08:00

I never said I'd lie & wait forever
If I died, we'd be together now
I cant always just forget her
But she could try

At the end of the world
Or the last thng i see
U are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
& all the thngs that u never ever told mye
& all the smiles that are ever ever...
Ever...

Get the feeling that ure never
All alone & I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies

At the end of the world
Or the last thng I see
U are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
& all the thngs that you never ever told mye
& all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt mye
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
& all the wounds that are ever gonna scar mye
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch mye

If I fall
If I fall (down)

At the end of the world
Or the last thng I see
U are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
& all the thngs that you never ever told mye
& all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt mye
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
& all the wounds that are never gonna scar mye
For all the ghosts that are never gonna...

Im utterly DISAPPOINTED & Im sure that IM NOT OKAY! Im gonna cry. ): sighs! Im hopeless. gone case, sad lyfe.

2005-10-19T20:25:00.000+08:00

im hurted, sadded, shagged and sick. how much worst can it be?

i wonder how come no matter how hard i try to be happy like before, i just cant. i'm a failure. a loser. i cant even walk or move properly. my body aches. not just my body,my leg, my hand, myshoulder, my neck everywhere hurts. the sun burn on my neck is killing me. feel lyk chopping off that burnt part. damn painful lah. i dun have to mention what the inside me is feeling. its so obvious. something is just missing. its not right.

when i tried to b nice and help u out in ur station, u took advantage of it by going to other station. then when i played and run ard, i get a scolding from u. u even shouted at me. no one ever shouts at me for playing catching. no one! i didnt take it to heart. but what u said to me when i ask u whether i shud go sch tmr or not, just hurt me. what did i do to deserve this kind of response? u urself said that i can sms u if i got anything. why are u going back to ur words?. i held u on it. i believed u. but why did u have to say that way? why cant i ask u?

its not fair to me. never have u been fair to me. why cant u be fair just for once? why wont u give me another chance?

do u know that i still love you?
i really do

- hurted,shagged,sicked-

2005-10-19T16:44:00.000+08:00

im finally..... HOME! ((: im super duper tireded. sighs. went for the green scavenger hunt this morning. it was a last min thng. gm & sigit asked sy & i to go 'cos they need to check their papers. im SADDED! im too tired to go but i still havto. sadded. )= im supposed to go to the ending point. i WALKED for a super long time. wow. its super far. its at the pond there. GROANS! my leg hurt lyke crap, my neck hurts, my wrist hurts. then still havto walk. sadded sadded hurted. then i waited lyke an idiot at the pond. okay. its the last check point. but im NOT supposed to be there! im supposed to be a lil in front. grr. stupidity. make mye so lonerised. haha! we went back to sch, i went for the last day of first aid course. haha. went there for fun one lar. im SUPER DUPER SUPER tireded. i slept in the class, until the teacher came in. i thnk i looked lyke a ghost at that time. 'cos i got eye ring & eye bag. & i looked shagged. i looked sloppy. haha! thats the signs & symptoms for tiredness. get it? waited until 3 for the stupid dumb dumb teacher to tell us to go to the hall. dumb. then we went to the hall for CPr, BANDAGING & the CHOKING thng. ahh! CPR. i miss it so much! haha. they used the dummies in our cca room. aww. my nice lil dummy. haha. then some guys are SUPER lame lar. shout the timing so loudly. majiam the instuctors/officers deaf lyke that. crazy/lame/stupid/dumb BUNCH of MONKEYS. i hate monkeys. so THEY ARE MONkEYS. im so tired. getting results tmr. sighs. sci. im gonna get scolding from mr tan for failing my sci. i flunk it, for sure. hahaha! so i shall stay HAPPY! (: & now, my butt, my calfs, my ankles, my thighs, my hip, my wrist, my neck hurts. & im having a headache. dumbo.

the HAPPIEST GIRL EVER - hanying * (;

sick

2005-10-18T19:43:00.000+08:00

OMG. i am running a fever plus sprains and my leg and body aches. haha. but i had a fun tym just. haha. the sec 3 resillience was ok but super tiring. imagine having to carry pails of water up and down from one ebnd to another of the field. if you think its easy, why not give it a try. especially when after running around looking for a stupid hose that is long enuf. but too bad we cud only find a hose long enuf to go only a quarter of the field. tiring man.
but we had fun among ourselves. so called played catching with that stuopid ivan. mental lah he. i say sumthing only then he all over the field to catch and smear mud on my shirt. arghh. kids nowadaes.

- torn between waiting or getting over -

sick and tiredd.

sweetness personified

2005-10-18T18:37:00.000+08:00

GRR! another STUPID DAY! ))= im pissed! by monkeys! i hate monkeys! though theyre cute. okay. i was send to the hiking spot. & its FUN!! whee! super fun. haha. but super tiring too. aww. wah lao. have been walking since donte knoe when lar. then super tired can. i wanna cry. my leg still hurt. im sadded. ): then still havto go hiking. im hurted. hahaha! okay. first, we went to macritchie. i donte knoe how to spell it. im DUMB. (= yar. then walk walk walk. walk until 12pm. GROANS~ im so tired can. then after that, we had our lunch & off we go agian, to bukit timah hill. wah. i'll never forget what happened. haha. & i'll i never forget how STEEP & LONG the hill is. went there last year during SJAB camp. it was super steep. & its still super steep to mye. haha. can roll down one. then sigit & i, kept laughing on our way down. haha. i donte knoe whats so funny about my laughter which makes him laughed lyke crap. then, his fren, laughed too. whats so funny? mental ppl. haha! um. okay. heres the EXCITING part. about my so called "WONDERFUL" experience w/ one dumb dumb monkey. grr. that stupid dumb dumb monkey snatched my chocs! im so shocked & angry. it looked at mye so pitifully. then in the end, i thnk it tht that i'll give him/her food but i didnt, so, it snatched it away from mye. i was super shocked. & i SCREAMED. i screamed super loudly. haha. mr toh (wk) can hear it from quite a distance. haha. then after that, sigit & his fren were trying to make mye laugh. but i didnt. hahaha! aww. too bad! bleah` um. went for the finale. it was boring. but i stayed ENTHU. whoo. scream my lungs out. hahaha. then mr sara was looking out for the one who's screaming lyke mental ppl. & that mental one is MYE! haha. & um. aisyah fell down. she slipped & fall. i SCREAM lyke mental. 'cos im afraid that anythng will happen to her. im worried. hopefully nothing happen. (= GOD BLESS AISYAH. okay. just reach home not long ago. hehe. whoo. CHOCS! i loarrve CHOCS! i HATE MONKEYS!! roars!~

2005-10-17T17:41:00.000+08:00

AHH!! my right thigh hurts! =C super pain. i thnk i strained it. sad lyfe. boohoo! super pain. knoe how i injured my thigh? ive cycled too much. haha. need to patrol to look out for casualties.i cycled 3 times, from the bicycle shop to Spark C. once is to the lighthouse there.yar. i miss Spark C so much .sighs. trainer louis. i miss you! ): okay. whatever. i shall continue my story. haha. um. yar. then lyke. i fall flat on the bench after one round. i went back & forth. so yar. i cant get out of the bike. my butt hurts. sadded. after resting for a while, i went for another round, w/o going to the lighthouse. shyt man. i fell off the bike once i reach the pavilion in front of the bike shop (we, the first aiders shld be there. its our checkpoint. haha.) yar. i fell down. okay. i donte hurts. haha. but my butt hurts! GRR!~ i cant walk at all. i feel so DEAD. haha. i fall aslp. went to look for sigit after that. then grr again. haha. i seriously cant walk after the 3rd time. i wanna cry. )= my thigh hurts. stupid stupid stupid! it still hurts. i applied some deep heat cream on my thigh. hopefully it'll be alr tmr. 'cos i needa cycle again tmr. & i loarrve cycling. i better rest now. or i'll have an accident tmr. haha. what rubbish. oh yar. got 4 ulu boys, super irri. grr. cant stand it.

2005-10-16T12:27:00.000+08:00

i long to tell you how much i love you.

memories.

sweetness personified. (=

2005-10-16T11:38:00.000+08:00

Well if you wanted honesty,
That's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go,
It's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks,
The photographs your boyfriend took.
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear mye out.

What will it take to show you that it's not the lyfe it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again, you sing the words
But donte knoe what it means,. (I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look
Another line w/o a hook.
I held you close as we both shook.
For the last time,
Take a good hard look!

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear mye out.

Forget about the dirty looks,
The photographs your boyfriend took,
You said you read mye lyke a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed.

I'm okay.
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now.
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to mye,
B'cos i'm telling you the truth
I mean this.
I'm okay!
(Trust mye)

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
Well, I'm not okay.
I'm not O-fucking-K.

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.

2005-10-14T14:18:00.000+08:00

Long ago
Just lyke a hearse, you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on, just lyke a match you die to incinerate
The lives of everyone you knoe
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break ( heart you break)
And lyke blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that i could say
Thngs are better if i stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall
Brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And lyke a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that i could say
Thngs are better if i stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Thngs are better if i stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear mye
Are you near mye
Can we pretend
To leave and then
We'll meet again, when both our cars collide

What's the worst that i could say
Thngs are better if i stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry out this way
Thngs are better if i stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

2005-10-13T18:04:00.000+08:00

EXAMS OVER!! finally! no more stress. so im stress free. LOLness. hahaha. um. went bowling w/ elaine, shaan, qianying, huisi, clement & mark just now. haha. yar. but i didnt bowl lar. 'cos i forgot that we're going bowling today therefore, i forgot to bring money. haha. 'cos i intend to go home after exam. so. yar. too bad lar. some other days then. hahaha. then um. went bugis w/ qianying. we walk walk walk then ended up at suntec. haha. pro-ness! (= hur hur-ness. (; so yar. whoo! PIGLET PUZZLES!! GOSH! super cute! ahh!!! mentalness. piglet puzzles! wait for mye! i'll be back. bleah` & the frames. gosh. im gonna be super broke. hahaha! who cares anyway? hehe.

2005-10-10T19:45:00.000+08:00

Always, Always and Forever

I'm sitting here
I'm thinking back to a time when I was young
My memory is clear as day I'm listening to the dishes clink
You were downstairsyou would sing songs of praise
And all the times we laughed with you
And all the times that you stayed true to us

Now we'll say, I said I thank you
I'll always thank you
More than you could know
Than I could ever show
And I love youI'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever

Always, Always and forever
you were my mom, you were my dad
The only thing I ever had was you,
It's true
And even when the times got hard you were there
To let us know that we'd get through you showed me how to be a man
You taught me how to understand the things people do
You showed me how to love my God
You taught me that not everyone knows the truth

And I thank you I'll always thank you
More than you could know
Than I could ever show
And I love you
I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you will live forever

2005-10-10T15:07:00.000+08:00

`you dont have to understand me cause i dun understand myself either.

woots. haha. two more days to go and im done with exams! haha. cant wait! wee'

2005-10-10T14:33:00.000+08:00

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
& I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

& I need you
& I miss you
& now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you thnk time
Would pass mye by
'Cos you knoe I'd walk
A thousand miles
If i could
Just see you
Tonight

It's always times lyke these
When I thnk of you
& I wonder
If you ever
Thnk of mye

'Cos everythng's so wrong
& I donte belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cos I need you
& I miss you
& now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you thnk time
Would pass mye by
You knoe I'd walk
A thousand miles
If i could
Just see you
Tonight

& I, I
Donte wanto let you knoe
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Donte wanto let this go
I, I
Donte....

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
& I'm home bound

Staring blanking ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

& I still need you
& I still miss you
& now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you thnk time
Would pass us by
'Cos you knoe I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you thnk time
Would pass mye by
'Cos you knoe I'd walk
A thousan miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight

2005-10-09T20:59:00.000+08:00

its not easy being me. especially when i try so hard to forget you but only to find myself falling even deeper for you.

- sarah-

2005-10-09T12:28:00.000+08:00

sighs. im sick. SORETHROAT & HEADACHE at FIRST. then i went to bed & slept for awhile. in the end, after slping, i got FEVER!! )'= i wonder if i can go to sch tmr. i havto go, no matter what!! i got LIT exam. sighs. sobs sobs.

2005-10-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

went to meet shaan at parkway to study at 2. haha. then clement, james, chester, boonhong came in at around 3. yar. then next is cynthia then mr toh. haha. um. after studying, we went for cell group. shaan didnt go w/ us, for some reasons. so im the only girl there. but, nvm. haha. its fun lar. haha. went for the girls' cell group w/ cynthia & mrs toh & their frens. haha. um. after that, we went to church. after that, i went home. i was startled 'cos two guys scared mye. okay. not really but. i donte knoe why i was shocked. okay. maybe 'cos im too tired. haha .yar. 'cos, when im sitting in the bus, one guy suddenly came & sat beside mye. wth. i was thnking of sth. then suddenly, he appear in front of mye. then i donte knoe what the hell they talking about lar. then went i was about to alight, i said EXCUSE MYE. then they was lyke. "aiyah. too late ler. sighs. hopeless ler." then went i was walking towards the exit, they said. "BYE BYE" i was lyke. wth lar. GRR. okay. whoo. have a fun day today. (;

2005-10-07T15:33:00.000+08:00

whoo. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to IKHWAN, LUQMAN & MYSELF!! whee. hahahahaha. mental-ness. LOL. um. i LOARRVE the presents you guys gave mye. its so sweet. haha. & i received 3 IDENTICAL piglets. hahaha. lol. its super funny lar. (= um. whoo. history was quite okay. hopefully can pass lar. i made stupid mistakes & didnt manage to complete the paper 'cos i donte knoe how to do. haha. bleah` um. the paper shld be 2 hours. but that freaking stupid idiotic teacher gave us only lyke 1 hour 45 mins? or 1 and a half hour? shats her man. sucker! pui! bleah` okay. relax. haha. um. went out today. went to watch the CORPSE BRIDE. omg! its uper cute can. haha. so funny. yet touching. (: aww~ in tears. LOL. im emo. um. after that, we went to huisi's house to watch LOARRVE STORM. its sucha nice show. haha. went home late. for its my birthday! & no one can stop mye from staying out late. BLEAH` not even my parents. hahaha. okay. once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to IKHWAN, LUQMAN & MYSELF!! & HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to KENNETH or KENNATH? i donte knoe. haha. my pri sch fren. winks * (; i LOARRVE you guys lots. huggies drypers. =P

happiness

2005-10-07T14:50:00.000+08:00

just wanna wish my husband- lim han ying and hym happy birthday! (= yeah. haha. may all your hopes and dreams come true! stay happy u guys. seeing you guys happy make me happy too. haha. have fun. hope u guys like your presents. haha. smile to ur max! stay gold! keep shining! muacks! love you! *winks*

haha. in morning was quite nyce. haha. i bet some1 was v. happy and touched. haha. *winks
history paper was quite ok but i think i left out a few points coz was bidding for time. one hr forty-five! where got enough time seh. timetable say two hours! two hours leh!! 7.50 - 9.50
its two hours! cheat my feelings only. haha.

okies. haha. gotta go.

take care.
loved,
sarah

2005-10-06T15:24:00.000+08:00

GOSH. im so SUPER tired. ))= sighs. tiredness. yawns. slept for one & a half hour just now. from 1.30 to 3. um. okay. CHI was easy!!! whoo. it's a good thng i didnt study. wheehee. 'cos it'll be useless studying for it. phew!~ actually, i did studied for chi. yay. just glance through lar. okay. gotta do some revision for history. sobs. (: 'cos i donte havta time to revise tonight as im celebrating my cousin's birthday. so..... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST TONY!!! whee. i LOARRVE you. um. i thnk he's 3years old. i donte knoe. haha. he's super cute. esp when he say. DOLPHIN. aww~ so sweet!!! okay. HISTORY!!! so. TADAHH!!!

goodbye!

2005-10-05T15:16:00.000+08:00

hahaha. exams. damn. eng and science no hope anymore. especially science! science leh. think i going to fail like the great depression. i have nvr failed science . i hope will nvr. haha. science. the love of my life, is now gone. haha. mental-ness

and one more thing. its so not me to hate some1. but this time, when i see his face or thnk abt the past, i cant help but getting pissed all over. i shant mention names. but its so obvious. i cant stand him.feel like kicking his ass all the way to pluto. not only a despo, but a super BIG FAT LIAR. dude! get your facts right first!!! arghh! i hate you. you would do a good job in ur future career - that is to con people. yeah. future conman. i bet it didnt get to you that the only reason i didnt wanna so up on the bus with the rest is because i cant stand your face. still u had the cheek to ask me y i was alone. i rather be alone than to see ur face.

let me get this straight, i dunt like you and will never. not even in a million years.

haha. i cant wait for friday. i dont know why. haha. winks*

gtg.

memories of you and me can never be erased'

`i still love you

-sarah-

2005-10-05T14:36:00.000+08:00

ahh!!! im hurted. )): im gonna cry. sighs. my science. GONE CASE ready. say BYE to my science paper. lotsa careless mistakes. im dumb, thats why. ): sighs. sad lyfe. so now, i shall concentrate on MATHS, history, lit, chi & dnt. thats all. i guess?? & yar. sci & eng paper just suck. so damn difficult can. i thnk im gonna fail sci & eng. whoo!!! im tore between this lyfe i lead & where i stand. im not those kinda ppl who cna study. i got super duper bad memory. im only interested in MUSIC. whoo. & SJAB!!! whee!! )= but, still sad lyfe.

2005-10-04T21:21:00.000+08:00

attention. ( =

2005-10-04T16:46:00.000+08:00

okay im back again. LOL. lame. haha. but. nvm. just wanna let my laopo knoe that i'll loarrve her forever. ((: AND.

2005-10-04T15:34:00.000+08:00

remember

haha. han ying . just wanna tell you that i appreciate what you did for me. all the craps, nonsense, our cat fights, my pms, attitude a lot more. really glad you stood by me all these while. thanks.

2005-10-04T14:10:00.000+08:00

im boreded!! sian-ness. humph. exam's tmr. SCI some more. die-ed. fail for sure. haha. 'cos i donte dig sci. hohoho. ((: so, good luck to myself. whee!~ goodluck hanying. gotta mug for history ready. so. tadah! mentalness. AND YAR!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE!! whee. the eugene from springfield. haha. (x happy birthday. may all your wishes come true and may you have a great day ahead. whoohoo-ness.

2005-10-04T01:09:00.000+08:00

what is done can nvr be undone. memories of you and me will always remain. memories. sweetness personified.

if you get there before i do, wait for me.
one fine day i will understand.but not now.
wait for me. i will get there. someday.

`sarah- diamond
keep shining